Existence as a constant disease...
Anything [bad word] is stained with the absorption of a new torment
The time [bad word] and I don't want to find any escape
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Fed up with rotted joys melted with daily pain...
 [bad word] my life and [bad word] myself
Each night is one more step to the end...
And I know the end [bad word] soon
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My shotgun has the shape of a glass
Which slowly sucks my essence out
Drink and swell 'till the world doesn't exist...
Worse is the future and forever will be...
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