I thought I had it all figured out I did
I thought I was tough enough to stick it out with Kim, but I wasn't
tough enough to juggle two things at once
I found myself planted on my knees in cuffs
Which shoulda been a reason enough for me to get my stuff and just leave [bad word] I couldn't just see this [bad word] myself its me
Nobody coulda seen this [bad word] I felt
Knowin' [bad word] well she wasn't gonna be there when I fell to catch me
The minute she was seen she just bailed
I'm standin' and swingin' on like 30 people by myself
I couldn't even see the millimeter when it fell
Turned around saw Gary stashin' a heater in his belt
Saw the [bad word] him and beat him to the ground
I just sold 2 million records I don't need to go to jail
I'm not about to lose my freedom over no female
I need to slow down, tryna get my feet on solid ground, so for now

Bury my face [bad word] books, 'cuz I don't wanna look
And nothing in this world is too much
I swallowed all I could
If I could swallow a bottle of tylonol I would
And hit it for good and say good bye to Hollywood
I prolly should 'cuz these problems are piled all at once
'Cuz everything that bothers me I got all bottled up
I think I'm bottoming out but I'm not about to give up
I gotta get up, thank God I got a little girl
Now I'm a responsible father so not alotta good
I'd be to my daughter layin' in the bottom of the mud
Must be in my blood 'cuz I don't know how to do it
All I know is that I don't want her following in the footsteps
Of my dad 'cuz I hate him so bad
Worst feeling I had was growing up to be like his [bad word]  [bad word] Man if you could understand why I am the way that I am
What do I say to my fans when I tell 'em

I don't wanna quit but [bad word]  I feel like this is it
For me to have this much I feel like this is it
This is not a game this fame the real life is as sick
Publicity my [bad word]  consume my [bad word]  [bad word] [bad word] the guns, I'm done I'll never look at gats
If I scrap, I'ma scrap it like I never wooped some [bad word] I love my fans but no one ever puts a grasp on the fact
That I sacrificed everything I had
I never dreamt I'd get to the level that I'm at
This is wack, this is more then I ever coulda asked
Everywhere I go I had a sweater, hood or mask
What about math? [bad word] I wasn't never good at that
It's like the boy in a bubble who never could adapt I'm trapped
If I could go back, I never woulda rapped
I sold my soul to the devil, I'll never get it back
I just wanna leave this game with level head intact

Imagine going from bein' no one and seein' everything blow up
And all you did was grow up mceein'
It's [bad word]  crazy, all I wanted was to give Hailey the life I never had
I've forced us to live alienated, so I'm sayin'