NEVER THERE AS USUAL. THE SIMPLE THINGS IN LIFE CONTINUE TO BE MORE AND MORE DIFFICULT. AS TIME GOES ON, NO ONE TO TEACH, NO ONE TO LEARN. NEVER DID [bad word]  YET IT STILL AFFECTS ME UNTIL THIS DAY. I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY THESE THOUGHTS STILL LINGER ON. WHY DO I BURY AND DIG AT ALL TIMES? MAYBE THIS IS MY WAY OF DEALING WITH ANGER. OR MAYBE I NEED TO SPEAK UP, INSTEAD OF WRITING THIS ALL DOWN.