First I told to myself there was no more than the sound 
Of the wind through an open door, and if no one 
entered it was no crime - at least it was none of 
mine, and all i saw I kept at bay, an empty heart 
in an emtpy space, there was no reason for me to 
live, I had nothing to give, nothing to give 

I closed my eyes and to my surprise my heart 
was beating I was still alive 
Was there really nothing I could do? 
No, it can't be [bad word] #33; 
I've been lying to myself, lying to myself for so long 
I've been lying to myself, lying to myself 
And it can't go on 
Cause I'm lying in state, I've been lying in a state of grace 
I'm lying in state 
I've ben lying to myself and it can't go on 

At first I tried to blame the world for all evils 
That were unfurled, flags of sin blowing in the 
Wind over church and state, the rich and the 
Great, but when I listened all I really heard was 
My own voice and my own words, sometimes 
Begging for love, sometime screaming with 
hate, screaming with hate 

I don't [bad word] that voice in my head, it's not mine it's the voice of the dead 
And why do you ask me what I think is [bad word]  
I learned it all from you! 
I've been lying to myself, lying to myself for so long 
I've been lying to myself, lying to myself and it can't go on 
Cause I'm lying in state, I've been lying in a state of grace 
I'm lying in state 
I've lying to myself and can't go on 

In the end, you are my only friend and all I see is you,
and all I have to give, my friend, I will give it to you.
Who do I mean? Who am I talking to?
How could it be more plain to you? Wake up.
Look in your heart. Who are you? What is your name? 

If I take a [bad word] in your perfect world it's only so 
You'll know me by my smell 
And though you turn away like you don't understand 
You know all too well 
You don't want to look, you don't want to touch 
You don't want to pay cause it costs so much 
You just smile and wish me well 
Well, you can go to [bad word] #33; 
Cause I'm lying in state, I've been lying in a state of grace 
I'm lying in state 
I've lying to myself and can't go on