Flags And Footprints

i'm looking for a reason why i see no shooting stars tonight
just a sign that everything's alright to quiet me, to quiet me
maybe all i hoped was wrong maybe all i dreamed is gone
maybe i was stupid all along for trying it, for trying it

but i believed in what you said
i [bad word] in your summer
now the leaves are turning red
and soon they'll all [bad word] down
how can i go on
if hope is what keeps me alive
and i'm so uncertain

it seems the more i look for you the more i fail to find the [bad word] 
maybe i'm affecting what i view with heavy veils and fairytales
maybe my research was sound but maybe i just fooled around
all flags and footprints but nothing further down to find you, to find you

but i believed in what you said
i [bad word] in your summer
now the leaves are turning red
and soon they'll all [bad word] down
how can i go on
if hope is what keeps me alive
and i'm so uncertain

i guess i learned the hard way or did i waste my time
i never met you half way but i crossed that line

and i believed in what you said
i [bad word] in your summer
now the leaves are turning red
and soon they'll all [bad word] down
how can i go on
if hope is what keeps me alive
maybe someday i'll know why