I didn't wish [bad word] home after the first couple stars
Even if they came [bad word]  and I was rid of you from my heart
How could I live with myself with the acts I had wished?
How could I keep a straight face if you let [bad word] back after this?

Will I regret all the things that led
To the words I said
On my own
Will you forget all my darkest times
Here and now that I'm [bad word] home
Is this just all that I am?
Is this just all that I'll be?

I am old -- far older than you've ever been
I have delved to the depths of my mind
Far beyond any reaches that you've ever seen
I've lived thousands of lives of all kinds

Children have lived and loved and died
I have kept them awake, and I help them survive
But I can't save everyone, know that I've tried
That's the burden of being alive

Will I regret all the things that led
To the words I said
On my own
Will you forget all my darkest times
Here and now that I'm [bad word] home
Is this just all that I am?
Is this just all that I'll be?

I'm trapped in a vessel
It's sharp, thorned, and cold
You've known me dear sister
Since times of old

I pray you'll see through this mask stapled on
I am not too far gone
I'm just dug so deep I can't breathe
It's lonely down here
I drink hate, I eat fear
I just need someone to believe

Will I regret all the things that led
To the words I said
On my own
Will you forget all my darkest times
Here and now that I'm [bad word] home
Is this just all that I am?
Is this just all that I'll be?
This is all I am
This is all that I'll be