Now for the freakshowdown, an hollow end 
came to see me break down for what it"s worth. 
Now for the last words we never said, 
I"m losing my voice in this fearful fight 

..and I hope to shape this into a better life. 
to feel again, this dreadful pain is wrong. 
..yeah I hope, I wrote down the last lines of this life. 
could be wrong, But I guess it"s worth a try. 

I see it for the first time,(sick [bad word] clean) 
Feel torn by the mess. [bad word] and break me down now for what it"s worth. 
Manufactured good times, but I feel like home. 
Feel destined for that hysteric last way out. 

I"m living by [bad word]  
(I"d write a thousand pages) 
To be free 
You where to strong for me 

With moral indecision and pure desperation 
I wrote an end to a nightfall imagination 
I felt the season change the lives of the unwanted 
the leaves scattered as my smiling eyes started to bleed in confirmation. 
this was the end. 
maybe not the disregard of thousand bleeding memories 
cause this story seems to fade. Too beautiful to be [bad word]  

Too beautiful to be [bad word]