Every time I turn around I see places that look so unreal
Every time I try to say exactly how I feel
And when I look at you I see a different side each and every time
I try to find another place there's nothing I can find
I wanna say feel it slipping away
It happens ever time you're in my mind
I want to say things that to you are [bad word] 
But I'm not sure about you
I'll never be who you want me to be
Gotta take some time in my life
Won't ever know until I try
I just gotta know why
Wouldn't you like all the best things out of life?
All you got to do is just try [bad word] for your life
All you gotta do is what's best for you
All you gotta do is get through [bad word] for your life
silence speaks to me a voice that seems so far away
The unheard cries of wasted lives I hear them everyday
Left in this sullen room I search for things that I can find
To hold on to to help me through nothing can be divined
All of these images start [bad word] from my memory
I search my mind go back in time to the way things used to be