I don’t know who to [bad word] no surprise
(Everyone feels so far away from me)
Heavy thoughts sift through dust and the lies
(Trying not to break but I’m so tired of this deceit)
(Every time I try to make myself get back up on my feet)
(All I ever think about is this)
(All the tiring time between)
(And how trying to put my [bad word] in you just takes so much out of me)

Take everything from the inside and throw it all away
'Cause I swear/ for the last time I won’t [bad word] myself with you

Tension is building inside steadily
(Everyone feels so far away from me)
Heavy thoughts forcing their way out of me
(Trying not to break but I’m so tired of this deceit)
(Every time I try to make myself get back up on my feet)
(All I ever think about is this)
(All the tiring time between)
(And how trying to put my [bad word] in you just takes so much out of me)

I won't [bad word] myself with you
I won't waste myself on you
Waste myself on you
You