REFLECTION OF SUFFERING

Every night I’m drowning in eternal circle of my memories
I want [bad word] I want [bad word] away from this madness
This is the edge of my sanity

I’m lost in the maze of my fears
Erase my mind and stop this pain
Your voice will never leave my head

Aching feeling of feebleness
Endless feeling of fear
It envelopes my mind
I hear your scream every night

It’s full of suffering
Scream of despair
I was a coward unable to save you
I was a slave to my doubts
Too weak to cross the border
I’m feeling so empty
Drown me in these waters of sorrow
Leave me dying on [bad word] of my existence
I will burn my soul

I’m dead to this world
I’m dead to myself
I’m living in [bad word] In a self-made [bad word] 
The clock of history won’t be turned back
The past is lost in eternity

Ashes of my world are flowing through my fingers [bad word] me and feed to the wolves
Give me your forgiveness
Give me absolution
I want to disappear
I want to leave this cage

Every night I’m drowning in eternal circle of my memories
I want [bad word] I want [bad word] away from this madness
This is the edge of my sanity

Aching feeling of feebleness
Endless feeling of fear
It envelopes my mind
I hear your scream every night

I’m dead to this world
I’m dead to myself
I’m standing on the brink of reality
Let me leave this cage
Let me disappear
This is the end of my suffering