[bad word] - Abadiya"

Verse 1:
My name is banda, hatari baloi kulfatdir
imtihonim [bad word] tanda, bir kunimda misoli elman
yoki to`zoni bo`ron, holatim har ne. amalim imkon sari
yahshi yomonimni poylar tarozi mezon, safari umrim asari
bir ulug` devon, tahmiman 100 yil davomidagi bo`lgan bu juda
oz muhlatga bitilgan begumon.
24.000 ming nafas, berildi kuni tuniga
mo`jizalari umuman borib aqlimga sig`mas
osmoni koinot, mili milliard yulduzga qarab turib
tom ketmasligini kuzatmadim o`zimda
Shamsu Qamar itoatidan tafakkurim teran
Bu borlig`ning ohiri borib to`htaydigan makoni mavjud
mekan, savolim huddi bir belibos!
 [bad word] 
Abadiya is no vicinity. 
Sense of being is beyond bounds of my mind. 
Abadiya saps my sanities. 
Leaving mysteries all behind shining stars  

Verse 2:
Mikro neyroning manam ulug` umidvor
tavba bor ekan, demak makphirat ham bor
himmatimni baland parvozga berdim
hotirjam tomoshabinman o`zi man bilan mano, nima g`am
mikro neyroning manam ulug` umidvor
tavba bor ekan, demak makphirat ham bor
himmatimni baland parvozga berdim
hotirjam tomoshabinman o`zi man bilan mano
Vujudim salomat lekin yuragim hastadir dardimga topilmas tabib
Agarda davosi bo`lsa ham negiz behuda bu hammasi gar etmasa nasib
Iltijo sari, inonib etgani qiyin bo`lgan manzilni kezdim
har zamon mano, bo`lishi mumkin emas degan narsaning o`zi ham
yo`qdir, bu olam mo`jizli usti ost, ertak ro`yo - u rost. 
 [bad word] 
Abadiya is no vicinity. 
Sense of being is beyond bounds of my mind. 
Abadiya saps my sanities. 
Leaving mysteries all behind shining stars