I hope I'm alive.
To witness your demise.
Make you feel my sorrow. [bad word] all my pain.
That I've felt for years.
Dreading each dying day.
Hanging by a thread.
On the edge of my sanity.

When I wake up the real nightmare begins.

Will I make through my time 
in living [bad word] 
Do I possess the strength to 
smash my fears into the ground?
I've tried to be strong.
I've tried to [bad word] but 
I don't think I possess the 
strength to carry on.
I'm torn between, and there's 
no right choice.
I've gotta fight back.
I won't be scarred for life.