Noone to wonder when I'll be home 
One more night stoned alone 
Ever-increasing notches on my belt 
I want to feel more than just sorry for myself 

I still feel stupid when I cry. 
I need to try... 

to find a way to fix my head 
and not be so [bad word] self-obsessed 
to learn to like to be myself 
and not rely on someone else 
to care not for fears and not for doubts 
and just for those i care about 
to try because I want to try 
and not to try for only I 

I wait for something to change 
maybe what should change is really me 

now I can see why I was cast aside 
you'll all have a better love, you'll all have a better life 

watch me spread my wings just to fall down 
watch me waiting here, flat-faced little clown