I'll take a nicotine, caffine, sugar fix
Jesus don't ya git tired of turnin' tricks
But when your innocence dies
You'll find the blues
Seems all our heroes were born to lose
Just walkin' through time
You believe this heat
Another empty house another dead end street
Gonna rest my bones an sit for a spell
This side of heaven this close to [bad word] 
Right next door to [bad word] Why don't you write a letter to me yeah
I said I'm right next door to [bad word] An so many eyes are on me
Right next door to [bad word] I got nowhere else to be
Right next door to [bad word] Feels like the walls are closing in on me

My mamma never really said much to me
She was much too young and scared ta be [bad word] "Freud" might say that's what I need
But all I really ever get is greed
An most my friends they feel the same [bad word] we don't even have ourselves to blame
But times are hard and thrills are cheaper
As your arms get shorter
Your pockets get deeper

Right next door to [bad word] Why don't you write a letter to me yeah
I said I'm right next door to [bad word] An so many eyes are on me
Right next door to [bad word] I never thought this is where I'd be
Right next door to [bad word] Thinkin' time'll stand still for me
 [bad word] you [bad word] 
Not bad kids just stupid ones
Yeah we thought we'd own the world
An gettin' used was havin' fun
I said we're not sad kids just lucid ones yeah
Flowin' through life not collectin' anyone
So much out there
Still so much to see
Time's too much to handle
Time's too much for me
It drives me up the walls
Drives me out of my mind
Can you tell me what this means...huh?