Awaken to reveal your white and bloodless face

Silently you whisper, “is this [bad word] that I breathe?”

circle of enigma, the sounding bells, and dancing in the flames

As I etch a trail of endless footprints, chasing out the monster

Swimming deep, swimming deep, through thick and the thin

Disguised in what’s unreal, the evil boundless
 [bad word] 

So I wonder do I really deserve this life

And I pray, and I pray for it all to end

To discard away my body, my soul in the dark

Leave it all to fade and erode away

And no matter how embedded the words remain

What I say, what I say, it won’t change a thing

For eternity will never forgive my ways

All my sins remain, but I’ll soon be gone

So I’ll keep on praying until I’m gone

(verse)

Alive as though the sunlight brings you out from underneath

Until you swallow up the lies, asleep under the laughing moon

“Hey, let me end this nonsense for you, I’ll be resting while you rest in peace at last”

Crying as you try to fill up the emptiness with thunder

Swimming deep, swimming deep, through thickening fog

Alive for what’s unreal, in evil I drown
 [bad word] 

So I wonder do I really deserve this life

And I pray, and I pray for your love for me

Took away the only feeling I had inside

With the loneliness, I have no escape

And I’ll count until the weight of my heartbeat won’t

Beat again, beat again for your love for me

Still eternity will never forgive my ways

Like I’m nonexistent, I’ll soon be gone

So I’ll keep on searching until I’m gone

(bridge)

The lies no longer reach my ears, they die and form the silent hills

The song, it plays endlessly like memories as I fall asleep

Vanishing within, all the voices die

One by one, one by one ‘til I’m deaf inside

And I reach out for that ivory hand I see

Your forgiving eyes bring me back to life
 [bad word] 

And I wonder do I really deserve this life

And I pray, and I pray for it all again

To discard away my sins and regrets I have

Leave it all to fade and begin again

Have my body be the shield to protect your life

And I say, And I say, I’ll change everything

But eternity will never forgive my lies

Open up the scars and remind myself

And I wonder do I really deserve this life

And I pray, and I’m praying for everything

Once again, I have returned to this [bad word] of a life

All my sins remain, but I’ll soon be gone

So I’ll keep on praying until I’m gone