12. Diary Of Battered Child

smack!
my head hits the wall
dont know why this is happening to me
a role model for me in this world
"do as i say and not as i do"
another slap across my face
just to show me that you care
how can i [bad word] love you?
what love do you have to share?
none!
someday theres gonna be [bad word] to pay
for treating your son this way
you cant take my dignity
without destroying your love for me
and you wonder why i hate your [bad word] guts
no time left for apologies [bad word] you
grown apart from you
im told that i am stupid
you taught me all i know
that im so [bad word] worthless
and that my lives a joke
curled up in a ball
is how i spent my [bad word] life
i tremble in fear and im bloody
and i cant stop the tears from flooding my eyes
what have i done to deserve
the agony you call love
i got a broken arm and stitches
while other kids got kisses and hugs
love / abuse
ever since i was born
i get them confused
you never cared
you never will
when i die [bad word] to my funeral