I am pretty sure that you have great ideas, thoughts and dreams about your near Future. In the future where you can speak English as fluently as a native speaker, at your new job, with new friends somewhere in the USA, Canada or Australia.

Take it easy. Admit one thing: you will never speak as a native speaker. Never! You will stay a foreigner and you will have an accent. You will make mistakes. Even if you have no grammar mistakes, you will definitely have situational and cultural ones. Have you ever heard foreigners who [bad word]  You are able to recognize easily if he or she [bad word] or not. It’s the same with English.

So first of all, before you start to do anything you have to accept it and [bad word] back to this topic anymore.

But don’t give up. Realize why you are going to study English. For what? And what’s the reason? What do you get after all? What is your Final Goal?

This is the most important part of your studying – to have Goal. Having a Goal you will put all your efforts to achieve it. And this Goal will help you during your hard times. You will not give up in the middle of the process, it will empower you, it will give you the energy. But only if you really have a clear Goal. The Goal which will bring something good in your life.

The language itself cannot be the goal. The language is the tool, means or skill - it doesn’t matter what it is but definitely not the goal.

You will use language like you already use a pen for writing, a phone for calling or a driving skill for moving yourself from point to point B. The same for the language - you will use it [bad word] 

But the Goal is something real what you will get: a new job, new place to live, the ability [bad word] with natives... Find it, describe it clearly and set The Final Goal.