i seem to have a history 
at missing the point at this stuff 
apparently very absentmindedly 
i care but never enough for you 

time to set the record straight 
time to [bad word] please anticipate

and i'm trying [bad word] the things i write
and i'm living the lie that i cannot satisfy
much against everyone's advice
i'm still trying - i'm trying - i'm trying - i'm trying

faith cheated me of everything
but i laughed until i stopped 
publicly very, very openly 
i sat alone with my thoughts for you

time to set the record straight 
time to [bad word] please anticipate

and i'm trying [bad word] the things i write
and i'm living the lie that i cannot satisfy
much against everyone's advice
i'm still trying - i'm trying - i'm trying - i'm trying