What do I do to ignore wats behind me
Do I follow my faith to escape blindly.
Do I hide my mind I away from these bad dreams
And give into sad thoughts that are maddening.
Do I let it go and try to stand it,
Or do I try to catch them red handed.
Do I [bad word] some and give into phoniness,
Or do i, [bad word] none and live life in lonliness.
Sunlight burns the skin of sleepy men,
I make the right turns but I'm lost w/in
I put on my daily full side but then
I just end up gettin hurt again

By myself [myself]
I ask why, but in my mind
I find I can't rely on myself

 [bad word] 
I can't hold on
To what I want when I'm stretched so thin
It's all too much to take in
I can't hold on
To anything watching everything spin
With thoughts of failure sinking in

If I turn my back I'm defenseless
And to go blindly seems senseless
If I hide my pride and let it all go on
Then they'll take from me 'til everything is gone
If I let them go I'll be outdone
But if I try to catch them I'll be [bad word] 
If I'm killed by the questions like a cancer
Then I'll be buried in the silence of the answer

[by myself] I ask why whatbut  in my mind I find I can;t rely on myself

How do you think I've lost so much
I'm so afraid I'm out of touch
How do you expect I will know what to do
When all I know is what you tell me to

Don't you know
I can't tell you how to make it go
No matter what I do, how hard I try
I can't seem to convince myself why
I'm stuck on the outside