When I die, I want it to be like a dream

I want to see myself ascend a marble staircase

Through the swirling clouds of bliss and hope

step for each of my worries lost

To the sweet surrender of the ever after

As I draw down the blade and cut my flesh 

I'm reminded of amber fields

Blues and whites in the sky

The porcelain stains red and I exhale

Something better awaits me there....

And then I feel [bad word] over me

Like I would never be sad again

The warm water caresses my open cuts

Serenity now, pouring from every major vein and artery

silence and a distance like I've never known before

They coalesce and in this moment everything is right

It's so beautiful...