Is it goodbye?

Verse 1:
Shadows and lights
Interfered in my mind
And again I am their prey

Deep in my heart
They have buried your words
Put a seal and locked inside
 [bad word] 
Is it goodbye?
Love will decide.
Will you stay in my life?
I've drowned in you
You made me blind
Killed inside
My own pride.

Verse 2:
I walk in this wrench
With regrets and alone
Now that I feel lack of your presence

Damaged and [bad word] I try 
To create solid stone 
To replace my feeble heart
 [bad word] 
Is it goodbye?
Love will decide.
Will you stay in my life?
I drowned in you
And don’t know where to hide
You killed inside 
My own pride