a voice screaming out your name 
surely it will not reach you my voice 
but for now i am okay 
someday in my heart you will 

tonight too i will dream a dream of you 
beneath my pillow I placed your letter 
my dream is too [bad word] my breathing [bad word] 
always at 4:30am i awaken in pain 

the time is too long 
the time is too painful 
the dream will not stop 
my love is frozen dead 
on this cold evening 
so, in this long night 

my consciousness is torn apart  [bad word] tiny pieces 
my memories scattering 
your ring i grasp it as tightly as i can 
my tears soaking my pillow 

like i cannot hear blocked up my ears 
your voice 
the scar on my wrist increasing once more 
melting into the wound you 

i am broken the letter burnt [bad word] ashes 
i am broken my heart broken [bad word] ashes 
i am broken i lost you i love you