Call you up in the middle of the night 
Like a firefly without a light 
You were there like a slow torch burning 
I was a key that could use a little turning 

So tired that I couldn't even sleep 
So many secrets I couldn't keep 
Promised myself I wouldn't weep 
One more promise I couldn't keep 

It seems no one can help me now 
I'm in too deep 
There's no way out 
This time I have really led myself astray 
 [bad word] 
Runaway train never going back 
Wrong way on a one way track 
Seems like I should be getting somewhere 
Somehow I'm neither here no there 

Can you help me remember how to smile 
Make it somehow all seem worthwhile 
How on earth did I get so jaded 
Life's mystery seems so faded 

I can go where no one else can go 
I know what no one else knows 
Here I am just drownin' in the rain 
With a ticket for [bad word] train 

Everything is cut and dry 
Day and night, earth and sky 
Somehow I just don't believe it 
 [bad word] 

Bought a ticket for [bad word] train 
Like a madman laughin' at the rain 
Little out of touch, little insane 
Just easier than dealing with the pain  [bad word] train [bad word]  back [bad word] train tearin' up the track [bad word] train burnin' in my veins [bad word] but it always seems the same