Look at me. I am the quintessential believer. I am God's gift to man. I am a shining example. I am the perfect son. So look at me. I can only dream to be all you see in me. I am [bad word] a broken man- lost and slowly losing hope as I lead my best friends to sin. I am a lie. I'm living a lie. And all that's shining through is my [bad word]  I have failed. I am this close to giving it all up. I swear to God, I'm not making this up. Just give me your attention. God, why won't you listen? Won't you listen? Desolation- I've lived here far too long, I know. I have failed. And still, you care for me. Still, you love me. Still, God, you love me.