i woke up trapped in the whitest walls
a hospital or so it's called
and the rooftop where i had jumped off from
i simply can't remember it at all

and the boy who reached out his hand
did not reach out enough
and i'd tried so hard so many times
but still it didn't work

'cause i
though i try, i am still alive

i wanna die, wanna die
but i don't just want to die
you'll arrive, just in time
just in time to stop me
all the pain that you gave me, i want it all to stop
yet it's not, not enough

i wanna die, wanna die
but i don't just want to die
i can't cry, there's a boy waiting on the other side
all the pain that you gave me, i want it all to stop
yet it's still not enough

i'm all alone when i try to hide away the memories we shared
like a mirror shows the past
i open up these scarlet eyes
with a pleasant expression
now tell me, are you surprised?

"i want to talk, want to breathe, want to be a living thing
all i ask, that i don't disappear before i reach
try to remember me
no matter where you may be
i hope you'll set me free..."

i wanna die, wanna die
but i don't just wanna die
you'll arrive, just in time
you're just in time to watch me die
from my memory, you're gone
hope it softens all the blows
yet it's still not enough

i wanna die, wanna die, wanna die
but i still cannot die
'cause you're here by my side and i
would like to have this just for once
so i'm not lonely

lalala
lalala
lalala
lalala

pain that feeds
pain that bleeds
pain that won't
ever leave

these wounds given to me
they won't ever leave