The one call I wish you had missed 
Thrown back into old ways 
Too much, too late, too far apart 
Too [bad word]  a bed, a phone and a broken heart 

I told myself: "Be brave, right between the eyes" 
But like the coward I am, I stuck to my half-lies 

I had a sledgehammer in my chest 
My hands were trembling 
Now I just feel sick 

I am not where I wish could be... 
Nothing is as I wish it should be 
Nothing is as it could be... 

I told myself: "Be brave, right between the eyes"