It’s been awhile
Since I could hold my head up high
And it’s been awhile
Since I first saw you
And it’s been awhile
Since I could stand on my own two feet again
And it’s been awhile
Since I could call you

And everything I can’t remember
As [bad word] up as it all may seem
The consequences that I’ve rendered
I’ve stretched myself beyond my means

And it’s been awhile
Since I could say that I wasn’t addicted
And it’s been awhile
Since I could say I loved myself as well
And it’s been awhile
Since I’ve gone and [bad word] things up, just like I always do
And it’s been awhile
But all that [bad word] seems to disappear when I’m with you

And everything I can’t remember
As [bad word] up as it all may seem
The consequences that I’ve rendered
I’ve gone and [bad word] things up again

Why must I feel this way?
Just make this go away
Just one more peaceful day…

And it’s been awhile
Since I could look at myself straight
And it’s been awhile
Since I said I’m sorry

And it’s been awhile
Since I’ve seen the way the candles light your face
And it’s been awhile
But I can still remember just the way you taste

And everything I can’t remember
As [bad word] up as it all may seem to be, I know it’s me
I cannot blame this on my father
He did the best he could for me

And it’s been awhile
Since I could hold my head up high
And it’s been awhile
Since I said I’m sorry