I just don't get it - just don't get it, please help me understand.

So what have I [bad word]  Please tell me if you can.
The world is changing, spinning, breaking, I don't know who I am.

You're smiling at me ... Pretending you can't see.

Something has changed, way deep down inside, the pieces just don't fit.
I'm broken now, so, why should I try? I'll bare this pain within.
Freeze.

I'm breaking yet unbreakable - I'm crazy but, I have control.
I'm searching but I know I've found ...

I'm standing here watching the world collapse around me,
You're so close - but I hope ... that you stop searching,

I don't want you to - to see what I've [bad word] ...
So please stop looking ...

I can't control the world that we've all been thrown in,
And I couldn't bare to hurt you ... I want this to end.

So please-I'm begging, won't you leave me alone?
It's better if you go ...

The dark consumes me in a blur,
I remember the way things were,
The way we laughed, the way we played,
Thinking the happiness would stay.

I can't escape, I can't escape, I can't escape, I can't escape, I can't escape,
I can't escape this ... UNRAVELED GHOUL!

There's something deep ... inside of me,
a change was made, I can't break free.

The darkness and the light collide,
Our fate ahead won't be denied,

I'm breaking yet unbreakable - I'm crazy but, I have control.
But even still I'll never stop fighting!

I'm standing here watching the world collapse around me,
You're so close - but I hope ... that you stop searching,

I don't want you to - to see what I've [bad word] ...
So please stop looking ...

I can't escape this loneliness my heart's been doomed to,
The future is unraveling, don't want to lose you,

So please-I'm begging, won't you leave me alone?

Remember who I once was ...

Don't you forget me,

I'm paralyzed, I know that I, can't ever turn back,
I'm trapped inside, this paradise, of nothing by black,

So please-I'm begging, won't you leave me alone?

Don't you forget,

So what have I [bad word]  Please help me if you can.