It wasn't enough [x3]

I will try to believe in the things I cannot see
But my faith is shaken now like it's never been before
When I call
And you [bad word] I don't know what I should do
Should I call?
Should I even count on you?
 [bad word] ]
I've given all I can
It wasn't enough
To keep you in my hands
Should I give up?
I try to understand
Was it ever enough?
I don't understand

So here I am once again
With my back against the wall
Afraid to show you
Afraid to tell you
I don't know you like I did
I've never been so alone
I've never felt so insecure
And now I don't know where I'm going
In my life I'm not so sure
 [bad word] 

Giving up tonight
I won't let go
Won't let go of you
Giving up tonight
I wanna show you
Wanna show you
Giving up tonight
I won't let go
Won't let go of you
Giving up tonight

I giving up?
Giving up

I don't wanna give this up
I won't
 [bad word] 

Everything you want from me
I fought so hard for everything
Everything you want from me
I tried so hard could never be
Anything you want from me
Anything you want from me
Anything you want from me
I gave it all