I married into the fly trap
I sunk into suburban sand
Victimized by restlessness
Blacking out in the lion's mouth.
I laughed at the cigarette stain; 
inhaling black on the blinds
And cried at the digital bulb blasts on the frames of my memory
I am transparent. 
Denied, segregate from the obvious. [bad word] and despairing--sick.
"I loved a girl I'll never speak to again. I spoke to a girl I never stopped loving"