Shiina Ringo x Saito Neko - Ishiki

Ishiki / Consciousness

atama ga areba kaname wa kantan ni katazuite 
kodomo to yobeba yogosarenai de sumu no sa 

boku ni sukoshi no kougousei kimi ni niau idenshi wo 
hito wa shiyou no nai koto ga sukina no darau 
“uso wo tsuku na yo” 

naitara nan datte kono shiroi te ni hairi sou de 
kotae nara junsui da 　hikare [bad word] konna fuu ni kimi wo [bad word] tabun 

ikutsu ni nareba sabishisa ya kyoufu wa kie [bad word] 
kodomo wo moteba yagate kutsuu mo [bad word] no ka 
kimi ga [bad word] shishunki to boku ga [bad word] hankouki 
mohaya goro wo awasu koto ga sukina no darou 
“uso wo tsuku na yo”

naitara donna hou mo [bad word] ganhou doori
kotae nara zannin da damashi [bad word] konna fuu ni kimi wa [bad word] tabun 

mou kore ijou [bad word] nemuranai yo to shinjuu misui 

omoide ni [bad word] kono ugaiyaku kamufuraadjuu 
nai mono choudai nante [bad word] youji douyou 
okaasama konbou no boku wo hajite irasshaimasu ka 

kimi ga [bad word] boku

If I was smarter, to say it bluntly, I could get things done easier.
If they call me a child, it’ll be over and done with, and I won’t have to dirty myself
bit of photosynthesis for me, for you genes that match. 
I guess people like helpless situations
“Don’t lie to me”

When I cry I feel I could get anything with these white hands of mine
The answer is pure. We’re attracted to each other. This is how I love you, I think.  

How old do I have to be to rid myself of loneliness and fear?
If I have a child will I at last be rid of my suffering? 
You adore your adolescence, I take advantage of my rebellious stage
Now we like our wordplay, don’t we?
“Don’t lie to me”

When I cry I can [bad word] any law, and do as I wish
The answer is [bad word]  We’re fooling each other. This is how I love you, I think

When I know more than this, I can’t sleep at night, and fail in my double suicide
In my memories an oxidized mouthwash, camouflage
I’m the same as a child whining for something that isn’t there. 
Mother, are you ashamed of this mixed child of yours?

I loved you.