i knew the depths
i saw the signs
but i could not believe
who showed me other ways
to love another makes me sick
these things i can't feel whole
i should've seen the cracks before the biggest made me fall

held me bleeding
and never stopped
i came creeping
just a toy for you to [bad word] kept me going
would never stop
i came creeping
just a toy for you to [bad word] 
we've payed our rent
were shimmering two ways
i can't deny [bad word] but i won't submit to rage 
nine of ten were lies
if anything was [bad word] believed you when you said the sun lived in a house with you

there's paper peeling off the walls echoing your words
my mind is spinning, well if that's what i deserve

i'm damned if i do...