Memories consume 
Like opening the wound 
I’m picking me apart again 
You all assume 
I’m safe here in my room 
(unless I try to start again) 

I don’t want to be the one 
The battles always choose 
‘Cause inside I realize 
That I’m the one confused 

I don’t know what’s worth fighting for 
Or why I have to scream 
I don’t know why I instigate 
And say what I don’t mean 
I don’t know how I got this way 
I know it’s not alright 
So I’m 
Breaking the habit 
Tonight 

Clutching my cure 
I tightly lock the door 
I try to catch my breath again 
I hurt much more 
Than anytime before 
I had no options left again 

I’ll paint it on the walls 
‘Cause I’m the one at fault 
I’ll never fight again 
And this is how it ends 

I don’t know what’s worth fighting for 
Or why I have to scream 
But now I have some clarity 
To show you what I mean 
I don’t know how I got this 
I’ll never be alright 
So I’m 
Breaking the habit 
Breaking the habit 
Tonight