"I'm addicted period. 
You know. I mean like, 
and its weird because so many of the population, 
so much of the population is addicted or - 
or you [bad word] and impulsive. 
I"m really [bad word] about [bad word]  
When I can"t fix my head with, you know, 
with a certiain [bad word] or whatever, 
I"ll clean somehitng up, you know? 
Or I"ll, i get really like,  [bad word] fidgety and [bad word] and I get, 
I fly off the handle easy, you know? 
It"s like if it"s not, 
if I"m not gorging myself on, on, on one thing, 
I"m [bad word] ..I"m trying to fill that, 
that hole some other way, you know what i mean? 
It"s always this great feeling of need 
and it doesn"t ne-necessarily have to be of anything in particular, its just something that you don"t know what it is, which drives you that much more insane sometimes, 
You know? And that"s what a lot of people today, 
um, suffer, from and a lot of people don"t even realise it, you know? I don"t profess to know everything about it but, you know? I don"t know. i just uh, I know that theres that hole that needs to be filled. 
And uh, a lot of people die trying.