learn that there is always a winner even when we don't need any roles
even when there's nothing to win in this space without warmth 
through this stiff light that passes beyond malice beyond logic 
which unites the history [bad word] to that of envy 
i'll watch yours to reflect the failure i have [bad word] 

i'm so ridiculous when 
i try to defend myself 
you know i'm nothing 
if i breath through you

you nourished me with obscenity of your faith in the shame of your repentance
i don't know how to suffer nor feel more than you do beside us [bad word] hope action purity equilibrium everything has value but not for me or just for this instant
i don't want to believe you anymore 
i don't want to believe it anymore 

i'm so ridiculous when
i try to defend myself 
you know i'm nothing 
if i breath through you