[bad word] and swallows everything I see
wind blows cold, piercing to my heart
The gates draw near, I’m so afraid of what I’ve [bad word] 
Look at everything that’s broken
All my life now wasted away
I never thought it [bad word] to this
I hate it, yeah, I hate it

Time would say that when he’s gone then I will see
The way, the way my life was meant to be
And I’m so far from where I should be
So far from what I was hoping for

Look at everything that’s broken
All my life now wasted away
I never thought it [bad word] to this
I hate it, yeah, I hate it
Everything has faded and I
I can’t believe my life is over
This isn’t what I wanted
I hate it, yeah, I hate it

God knows I tried so hard [bad word]  forgetting everything I love
For fear that I might slip away, away from You… God save me

Look at everything that’s broken
All my life now wasted away
I never thought it [bad word] to this
I hate it, yeah, I hate it
Everything has faded and I
I can’t believe my life is over
This isn’t what I wanted
I hate it, yeah, I hate it

And give anything to live again
I’d give anything for one last breath
If only to scream to You, that I might be saved
I’m letting go of everything…