disturbing thoughts l've caught on paper 
troubling remorse out of my head 
caged forever to remember 
to an action in the [bad word] failures just impressions 
careless whispers of myself
just try to secure my own cognition
papers patient and will survive me 
I try to fool my superior foe 
but it will burn near by the flames
don't want to fall in inner pain

i want to stop these sick thoughts of [bad word] 
returning in slow-motion films
worth to forget? to get it out of my head
i know the strange behaviour of stupidity
but it's not the worst creativity
to help myself just an ability
my hands are slaves they bring me down 
and find the way between the lines 
it's my advantage now i'm prepared for further scenes

another nightmare scene deleted 
just remembrance of the past 
annihilated thoughts of broken defence 
a new direction? a change of scenes
mad emotions pale my skin
a [bad word] of sins leads me to my old power