Who would I be if I never met you?

It's not like I don't knot that I can't go on
But I don't want to till I hear you sing me a song

It's only you who could bring me back 
But you only remember that I only ever ... seem to grief
And now you're serious as a heart attack
I'm trying to be sincere but all I think about
Is lying since you left
About the way that I've lived since
How I don't ... the same way
And if you walked into the room
I wouldn't be going insane
If our paths someday collide
Will you still be looking at me
Through indifferent eyes
 [bad word] 

Who would I be if I never met you?
I'm half as crazy now that I never see you
I'm plagued with thoughts of you in my mind, all the time 
It's always you who changes your mind, act like you're fine
Then confront me out of nowhere
Telling me you not mine
It's always you

If you throw away what you know is right
You'll end up just like me
Out of your mind!

For the past five years
I've been waiting for someone
That's [bad word] my way

All of my memories of you are fading with time
It's so hard to remember when you called yourself mine
When you left I found the worst in me
That's a sign
 [bad word] 

Who would I be if I never met you?
I'm half as crazy now that I never see you
I'm plagued with thoughts of you in my mind, all the time 
It's always you who changes your mind, act like you're fine
Then confront me out of nowhere
Telling me you not mine
It's always you

You said that I would see you again
You said this wasn't the last time
That this could not be the end
It's so incredible how much of a low life
I've exposed myself to
Of course I've always blamed you

I knew I threw away the only change I've ever got
Proving that I can stand up and take what I want
You only ever wanted me
To show you that I'd give up the life that I had just for a chance

Every day I'm wondering if I'll ever change
Addicted to the pain
I feel when I hear your name
Picturesque memories of you haunt me in my dreams
But every time I wake you're gone and I'm left to face the day alone
Every thing I do I think I do it for you
It's sad, it's funcking sick
But the worst path is [bad word] I know you'll never hear this but it's all I can do
Just say my [bad word] guts and hope that you get a clue
 [bad word] 

Who would I be if I never met you?
I'm half as crazy now that I never see you
I'm plagued with thoughts of you in my mind, all the time 
It's always you who changes your mind, act like you're fine
Then confront me out of nowhere
Telling me you not mine
It's always you

OH