all alone beside myself 
all alone beside myself 
and i've troubles on my mind 

and i've reached the depths of life 
and i hear that deaths alright 
still i'll wait for you to try 

when the dreams have been and gone 
and the torment has begun 
my [bad word] 

can't get by with what i've got 
always dwell on what i've lost 
just a loaded gun... 

a symbol of my life, a symbol of my life 

on the floor i crawl and writhe 
as the day turns into night 
i remove myself from sight 

and i reached the depths alright 
and i hear deaths part of life 
still i wish that you would try 

when a dream has been and gone 
and the torment has begun 
the rejections done 

i get by with what i've got 
always aware of what i've lost 
just a loaded gun... 

a symbol of my life, a symbol of my life 

nothing more, nothing more to say to me