How I wish I could surrender my soul
Shed the clothes that [bad word] my skin
See the liar that burns
within my needing.
How I wish I'd chosen
darkness from cold.
How I wish I screamed out loud
Instead I found no meaning.

I guess it's time [bad word] far far away
 [bad word] in pain.
All pleasure's the same.
It just keeps me from trouble,
Hides my [bad word] shape like Dorian Gray.
I've heard what they say
But I'm not here for trouble.
It's more than just words
It's just tears and rain.

How I wish I could walk through
The doors of my mind
Hold memory close at hand
Help me understand the years.
How I wish I could choose between
Heaven and [bad word] 
How I wish I'd save my soul
I'm so cold from fear.

I guess it's time [bad word] far far away
 [bad word] in pain.
All pleasure's the same,
It just keeps me from trouble,
Hides my [bad word] shape like Dorian Gray.
I've heard what they say
But I'm not hear for trouble.
It's more than just words
It's just tears and rain.