do you think you could foster all that hate?
could you foster enough hate?
is  boring to your body?
is  degrading to your body?
does some body withhold  from you?
invalidate you ually?
has some body used you ually?
any one [bad word] you for ual purposes?
any body performed ual actions on you as a child?
were your parents mean to you?
you have ual withholds from your parents?
brothers or sisters mean to you?
someone try to abort you?
neglected as a child?
hate your parents.
ever mishandled as a child?
destroy your toys to get even.
been implanted with [bad word] 
implanted with ual inhibitions?
implanted with  as evil?
implanted with ual pictures?

any stops in your life?
been disappointed with someone?
have you ever pretended to enjoy ?
any thing concerning  you have withhold about?
any thing you've done that you are restraining,
yourself from ever doing again?
and yet you know you're still a failing [bad word] liar,
to mock up a really [bad word] bad future for yourself.

you're about to,
experience getting seriously [bad word] up.
and once you're willing to,
feel that out of control and getting exited about it.

dump the [bad [bad word] 
rise up.
rise up.
kill this [bad word] nightmare,
that is inside you.