bye
burn
bold
bored
of watchin' the same movie
in my head

I remember me in that room,
waitin' for (the) sleep [bad word] 
waitin' for minutes,
waitin' for hours,
waitin' for days.
waitin' for a miracle (,)
2 wake up from this nightmare.
never stoppin' 2 say : it's not possible,
it's not possible, it's not my life.
please take it & give it to the garbage [bad word] 
please take this life & flush it in the toilets.
throw it into the ocean.
burn it all.
bury it six feet under.
give it to ur worst enemy.
give my life to ur worst enemy.

I remember me under this public bench.
like a tramp.
like a [bad word]  tramp.
drinkin' alcohol & alcohol.
eatin' pills & pills.
mixin' it.
feelin' my mind goin' crazy.
just 2 forget.
I remember the cold.
<...>
I just learned about ur crimes & just wanted 2 die.
not even 2 kill u...
not yet.
I just wanted 2 die & u were laughin'.

drinkin' for other reasons.

I remember what u never saw.
what u'll never see.
what u'll never remember..

then I wanted 2 kill.
I wanted 2 kill u.
I wanted 2 kill them.
I wanted 2 kill the earth,
and after 2 kill me.

I got the picture of u naked.
I got the picture of u suckin' [bad word] 
I got the picture of u with all theses [bad word] 
I got the picture of u askin' my friends 2 [bad word] 
I got the picture of u lyin' 2 me.

I got no more pictures of u now.
no more pictures
no more

bye
I know I didn't say it
burn
1st & last goodbye
bold
of havin' wanted 2 kill u
bored
of watchin' the same movie

in my head

so now thank u, [bad word] 
thank u so much, [bad word] 
all the [bad word] u sent on her face
was the fuel I need to reach Anchorage.

reachin' Anchorage.

[i feel no force in me]