Mirror Of Sins

How did I fall , 
How did [bad word] to this ? 
I have thought past was a past 

Now I'm taking a look into the glass 
Searching for a light, 
some kind of my delight 
Which I can't find ! 

Now I can see myself 
In the mirror of my sins ! 

Wind recalls my deeds 
An abstract of my life 
All is spoiled and destroyed 
Now I see what I have done ! 

As I stand here, I'm living dead 
My heart is black and soul is fading 
Is it real ? Or is it sum of all my fears ?