I have been searching for this unholy depiction of the self 
An exterior sight for the meaningless faces that defy me 
And yet I still fail to know all the reasons for this 
Ongoing objection to all that I am 
You better know when to believe in what you are seeing 
For there is more than this shell 

Taking this in is harder to bear since 
The will of my being is unknowingly scarce 
But I will learn through the ways of defeat 
This rejection, it was channeled through me 

So I am left with this unguided path full of plight 
Where no one’s listening or see my signs of grief 
Because I lack respect 
I must accept this fate for all these rash mistakes 
And clear the view from here, my life in peril 

Don’t negate the signs when they are overwhelming 

When desolation breeds your heart begins to sink 
It blocks the will to see that you are out of line 
So many years and still not past this all 
Be aware of what you speak 

This is the only way to reconcile my afflicted mind 
And yet it’s stressing me to undo the damage 

If we look inside we will surely find the source 
Of all the insolence, still we must judge ourselves before anyone else 
I lacked the thought to see myself in any other way 
To be the enemy I’ve always sought to kill