"it's just kind of the [bad word] fact that i can't sit in the same [bad word] room as you without feeling like a [bad word] ..

and that like it [bad word] [bad word] me up when i see you with a different guy; which is selfish as [bad word] but i don't [bad word] care. i'm so [bad word] angry but like not angry at all but like my insides just hurt like a [bad word] [bad word] and it's a [bad word] up feeling and like i want to just [bad word] walk out the front door because i can't sit here and [bad word] think without my body freaking out and my mind racing and it [bad word] sucks and [bad word] like i can't [bad word] do anything about it and i've [bad word] ripped you apart like a [bad word] [bad word] [bad word]  [bad word]  like [bad word]  [bad word]  [bad word]  [bad word]  it's a feeling so [bad word] [bad word] that i can't do anything about and like i won't send this but i'm just writing out my anger and i just want to like [bad word] fall off a cliff because i don't know what to do anymore.

 [bad word] "

i think about you every night; write you every night; but never send what i write to you.

i'm sorry.