TIRED OF SILENCE

I am staring on the door -
No one is [bad word] to
My place anymore.
Sparkling pictures of those days
Are dusty and forsaken
Among the empty space.

I'm tired of silence.
My every step,
Every breath I take
I’m losing faith.
I'm sick of this violence:
In this evil world
All that I'm fighting
For I'm giving up.
 [bad word] 
I've never thought It'd be so cold,
It never seemed I'd hate this world,
And it's people dull and cool.
I've never had a perfect life,
But never guessed I [bad word] With these wicked [bad word] rules.

Good memories I had
Have left me like a traitors,
And now I'm really sad.
What is this I can't explain:
My heart was full of mercy,
And now it's full of pain.