Nothing ever stops all these thoughts
And the pain attached to them
Sometimes I wonder why this is happening
It's like nothing I can do will distract me when
I think of how I shot myself in the back again
'Cause from the infinite words I could say / I
Put all the pain you gave to me on display / but didn't
Realize / instead of setting it free / I
Took what I hated and made it a part of me

[It never goes away]

Hearing your name / The [bad word] back again
I remember when it started happening
I'd see you in every thought I had and then
The thoughts slowly found words attached to them
And I knew as they escaped away I was [bad word] myself to them / And every day I
Regret saying those things / 'cause now I see / that I
Took what I hated and made it a part of me

[It never goes away]

And now
You've [bad word] a part of me
You'll always be right here
You've [bad word] a part of me
You'll always be my fear
I can't separate myself from what I've done
I've given up a part of me
I've let myself [bad word] you

Get away from
Me
Gimme my space back / You gotta just
Go
 [bad word] down to memories of
You
I've kept it in but now I'm letting you
Know
I've let you go
Get away frm me

I've let myself [bad word] you
I've let myself [bad word] lost inside these
Thoughts of you
Giving up a part of me
I've let myself [bad word] you