I'm staring at your picture dad 
  Pulling up the past 
  Trying to learn about this father that I never had 
  So young, so wrong, and ye gone 
  It's only, me, mom Virginia & God 
  Were all alone, and are leader is not home 
  The crossroads took you or these demons below 
  I'm feeling the cold, you were not here, not there 
  When I had my first fight I was so scared 
  When I had my first kiss I could not share 
  I was lost and the school they did not care 
  Why'd you leave me, hanging from the ceiling? 
  Angels stopped singing and mom's not sleeping 
  I'm not bitter or mad, I'm just missing a dad 
  Sitting here thinking, praying wishing you back 
  These feeling are wack, almost too much to bare 
  I know your souls alive I just want to know where 

 Are you 
  Why did you leave me 
  Where are you 
  Were you thinking of me dad 
  Are you 
  Do you love me 
  Where are you 
  Than where are you if you do 

 Well I'm all grown up now moved out a P-Town 
  Married this girl, mom said you'd be so proud 
  I even slimmed down I'm hanging with a new crowd 
  If only you're around, you'd see what I can do now 
  I travel the globe, singing bringing a hope 
  Through hip hop rocking roll lifting the soul 
  They say I look like you, your smile & eyes too 
  I got moms hair thank God I was frightful 
  I know you [bad word] back from the past 
  But the fact that you left and the damage is bad 
  I don't know if mom fears or if she ever got healed 
  Or if she blames you and God over the years 
  You were my dad, and I was your son 
  If only you new what it was like growing up 
  When I look at the sky I get this thought in my mind 
  And wonder what it be like if your still alive 

 I'm still trying figure out what when on in the house 
  What voice was talking loud what made you kill yourself? 
  Was it something I did, I said, as little kid? 
  Something like a fib that you can't forgive? 
  My life was so hard lost my only body guard 
  Slowly God healed the scars let's say you left a mark 
  I've had the same thoughts that talked to you, Talk to me, 
  I had to see a shrink but now I'm back on my feet 
  I battle thoughts with words, using psalms & verbs 
  new rebirth no longer I insecure 
  I heard a voice say I'll never leave ye 
  But I didn't see ye I've forgotten you like amnesia 
  I believe I'll see you some where in heaven 
  Where we can talk and I can ask you a question 
  But for now, I'm a move on be strong 
  And make sure I'm there for my own son