"Lead You On"

Twice I turned my back on you
I fell flat on my face but didn't lose
Was it the blue night
Go franchize
Was it a gold themane (?)
In a wonder steady goin under

Tell 'em drain the pool I'm sinkin [bad word] and save my life before It pass
Scratchin at the surface
But the bottom's where I'm at
Only place my addiction will tell me
That I'm free at last
So why the [bad word] you playin with my head
I said I'm done
Any and everything I had is gone
I says you won
You promised that we'd only be together for a minute
Then we finished 
But my life had passed another year
Why the [bad word] is you in it?
I gave up everything for you
Even my house
Now I'm beggin on a nightly basis
To sleep on the couch
My councelor said I need to find a way 
To block the pain out
I told him it was already too late
She is in my veins and he said

Tell me what led you on 
I'd love to know

Well It's just that
When I felt her the first time, I flew
Nobody gives me the high that she do
See, we fight all the time
And she leaves [bad word] on my arms
But the way she makes me feel inside
That girl can do no wrong
Now all my family hates me
Since I started [bad word] wit her
And all my friends done left me 
Cuz they jealous that I'm wit her
I tried to break it off
She gets me back with the feel
After everything she did
Why the [bad word] do I love that needle
Please help me

Twice I turned my back on you
I fell flat on my face but didn't lose

Look, this love's killing me
Literally
Everytime I start to pick you up
You finish me
Used to love waking up in the mornings
And feeling you
Now I'm just ashamed
And wearing long sleeves concealing you [bad word] you wasn't [bad word] How the [bad word] could you do this
Now my [bad word] life [bad word] Imma kill you [bad word] I'll do it
And so I
Tie it up
Stick that [bad word] up in my skin
And overdose on your love 
So I can't have it again
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