On a mission started by my own admission
I will leave you all behind
By direction I'll create my own protection
The real me you'll never find

Aspirations turn to fear and desperation
Nothing's ever good enough for you
Burn in sorrow 'cause I see there's no tomorrow
You'll only see what I want you to

Never gonna find me
Never gonna find me
Way down deep inside there is a real me
I'm always gonna hide and this is who you'll see
Never gonna find me
Never gonna find me
Way down deep inside they haven't found me yet
I'm always gonna hide and this is who you'll get

On a mission to establish my attrition
You may think that you have won
Your rejection has brought on my introspection
I'll escape I'll [bad word] 
Accusations may destroy my motivation
I can feel it when you're pushing me
Burn in sorrow 'cause I see there's no tomorrow
Only I know which me you'll see

Never gonna find me
Never gonna find me
Way down deep inside there is a real me
I'm always gonna hide and this is who you'll see
Never gonna find me
Never gonna find me
Way down deep inside they haven't found me yet
I'm always gonna hide and this is who you'll get

Break [bad word] 
Down inside!
I've got to!
Push it way!
Down!
I did not choose this!
God Dammit!

I don't really know
What I want to say
I can't afford the throw
Can't make it go away
Try to make it through [bad word] your decision
I can't feel myself
But I'm burning up now!

Never gonna find me
Never gonna find me
Never gonna
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I am waiting
On a mountaintop
For the moment that the sky will strike
My apologies
Are forever lost
Soon to ashes in a flash of light

Miles away from me
Hope is fading soon
Gone forever it's a waste of time
My intentions
Like a sweeter room
Only bring to me a fading light

Locked up forever inside
I look to the stars and ask why
Oh - If they could just teach my dark heart to feel
All I've saved - oh why
Thrown away - oh

I am waiting
Like a single bloom
Lost forever in the storm of life
My intentions
Like a sweeter room
Only bring to me a fading light

Locked up forever inside
I look to the stars and ask why
Oh - If they could just show these wounds how to heal
Here I am - oh why
My last stand - oh why
And I know
For all the rising and falling there's nothing to show

Throw me down
Throw me down
Throw me down
It's been raining - Throw me down
And now I will pay - Throw me down
Woe [bad word] to me - Throw me down

I am the lightning rod - Throw me down

I am waiting - Throw me down
On a mountaintop - Throw me down
Oh above me - Throw me down
He will strike me!

Locked up forever inside
I look to the stars and ask why
Oh - If they could just teach my dark heart to feel
All I am - oh why
My last stand - oh why
And I know
For all the rising and falling there's nothing to show